Well…I think I talked to Dan for 3 hours. Lol. It was…quite fun 
I ate delicious pizza for dinner and read a TON of my book.
I’m leaving to go back to Joplin, Misery tomorrow at about 7am. I’m not looking forward to the drive, but I miss Paige and Wishbone. A lot.
We’re staying in a hotel overnight, and continuing the trip on Friday! Then I’ll be home. Hooray.
I’ll go.
Goodbye, Milton! I’ll miss ya! (sort of)
Later, beautifuls…
xx
Sittin’ here. Readin’ my book. Just got back from another delicious mexican lunch 
Our waiter…omg. He was HAWT. And he was givin’ me the eye, too. I saw. And he smiled at me when he wasn’t even at our table, and he…ugh. So fucking gorgeous. Too bad he’s like…19. Two years older than my boyfriend…5 years older than me T-T
Now I’m back. Ready to relax for the rest of the day. Unwind. Today is my last day here in the wonderful town of Milton. Nice little place, really. But goodness, there’s a lot of rain. It’s raining now. But just how I like it. I woke up this morning because it was raining so hard…it was really loud.
We’re having pizza again, tonight. Cheese, pepperoni, and sausauge pizza. YUM! Hope I’ll have room…my lunch was huge T-T
Guess I’ll go. Most likely update later.
I miss Dan 
Later, friends.
xx
Today was a fun day in which I decided to be a virgin for the rest of my life. Dan talked me into that. So, Dylan…if you’re reading this, you can thank Dan for talking me into never having sex. Ever. In my entire life. Sorry, babe. It’s the way I roll now. Yer still hawt, though 
It was also pretty fun because of the stuff I did today. This morning we went to the beach…then we ate at McGuire’s…then we went to this amusement park place.
The beach was fun. But so windy, I got sick of it fast. I got a shit-load of shells. Lol. But staying outside for five stupid minutes put my hair in such knots…like nothing I’ve ever had before.
McGuire’s…ah, McGuires…that was the best steak I’ve ever eaten in my life. It was a 14 ounce friggin’ steak, so I didn’t finish it, but DAMN it was delicious. So was my fries. They were good. (Although…Whiskey Creek has the best fries. In the universe. They’re fries…omg, like an orgasm in my mouth.). But…nothing made me feel more guilty about eating a steak than having a little plastic cow on a stick sticking out of my meat…poor little cow
Then the amusment park place. Sam’s…somethin’. I don’t remember what it’s called. But it was the first time I ever rode in a go cart. I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to drive it. I’m not good with controling things at all. But when I started driving, I kept going faster, and faster, and soon I was going as fast as the little car could go, and it STILL wasn’t fast enough for me. I loved it. But I rode it like 5 times, and now my right arm hurts.
And for some reason…I’m hungry. WHY THE HELL am I HUNGRY!?! I ate a huge lunch. But I’m hungry. And I’m probably not eating tonight, because me and Justin are the only ones who are hungry in this house, and Justin’s going home soon. No dinner for me. Darn.
Guess I’ll go. That was my whole day
‘Til tomorrow (or possibly later), friends!
xx
I’m really hooked on this book, man. It’s really interesting. G-ma Jean says,
“If you buy that book and not read it, I’m gonna hurt you!”
I’m almost to chapter five. Bahahahah, G-ma Jean…how silly you are.
Did you know that one fast food meal actually equals 3 meals? So, if you eat 3 fast food meals a day, it’s like you’re actually eating 9 meals. Jesus.
Justin just left. Jerry, Christy, and Mikenzie all came over when we ordered the pizza and they ate some, too.
I’m trying to make up for the month I stopped updating, by updating a ton of times in a day. This is my third post today. Hahaha.
Just sittin’ here…waiting for Dan to reply. Why am I sitting here waiting for that? He won’t reply for at least an hour…but what else do I have to do? Nothing. I mean…I could take a shower…but I hate being the first person in the house to take a shower. It’s awkward. And if I’m too slow, they’ll yell at me.
“Hurry up! There are other people who need to shower besides YOU!”
I’ll wait for everyone else to be done. And hopefully by then, I’ll have a new unread message waiting for me in my inbox from “Dan H.” Oh, I sure hope so I’ve really taken a liking to this boy. Sure, he’s three years older than me…so what? Age is just a number Ashley’s dated 20 year olds. that’s four years older than her. So, whatever. I don’t care what anyone says
This would have been a much better post had I not rambled. Ah, well. Old habits die hard, I suppose?
‘Til tomorrow, friends!
xx
Just took an hour walk with everyone…it was nice.
But the only thing I could think about the entire mile walk was Shane. And it really, really sucked. Yes, I do feel like I’ve lost everything I could lose. And since me and Shane broke up, guy’s have been sufficating me, trying to get my attention, and its just ANNOYING. Because I keep telling guys, “I’m waiting for Shane, I’m waiting for Shane.” Shane needs to catch up with me, man. Because I’m leaving him behind, and that really hurts. And I was thinking about Dan. Of course. And just like I thought with Brett, I’m thinking too much about Shane, and it isn’t fair to him. It’s not fair to Dan at all. I mean…it isnt like I’m thinking about Shane every moment of my life, I do have other things to think about, but…I still do pray every night that Shane will come back. Like I did with Dylan. A year later, look whose come back…Mr. Dilly Bar himself. But, why should I be praying for my ex to come back, when I already have a freaking boyfriend who treats me like I’m some kind of goddess or something? Shane was loyal. Shane was honest. Shane was sweet. Well…he still is all of those things, but..not exactly the same as when he was with me. He’s more loyal and honest to his fat, stupid, annoying friends.
It’s going to rain.
The pizza is on it’s way. I should go.
Seeeeeee yaaaaa!
xx
Well, today’s been a pretty good day so far.
We went out for mexican food (YUM! My favorite!) and went to a couple book stores. I got the book “Don’t Eat This Book: Fast Food and the Supersizing of America” by Morgan Spurlock from Super Size Me. It’s pretty mother fucking interesting so far.
Then we went to PetLand. I got to pet the bunnies and ferrets and stuff. I love PetLand. Lol.
And we went to Kmart so my grandma can get some stuff, and I ended up paying TWO fucking dollars and FIFTY freaking cents for a little 20 oz Sunkist. That damn machine took my effing money, and only gave me fifty cents back. Wtf? It’s not even that great. Fanta is way better.
Justin should be coming home from school any minute now, so I should get off and wait for him. We might be going out to eat later.
‘Til tomorrow, beautifuls!
xx
Jeffree and Davey…they’re so adorable, I swear. This is one of the cutest pictures I’ve ever seen DD
xx
Wow….it’s been a LONG time since I’ve updated. And a few people have emailed me and told me that I should start updating again. Sorry ’bout that. Been real busy and stressd out lately.
Let me tell y’all what’s been goin’ on lately:
I went out with Brett. Yup. He asked me out on February 12th. And I went out with him for about 3 weeks. And on the last 3 days, he just stopped talking to me, and I was wonderin’ why, so I asked one of my friends about it, and found out he cheated on me 3 times with one of Shane’s other ex’s. Asshole. Then he said he was really sorry and wanted to go back out out with me, but he has a girlfriend. Butt wipe, I’ll never talk to him again.
Me and Dylan are…I don’t know what we are. We’ve had some hardcore phone sex lately. LOL! And he says he wants to go back out with me, but…he’s a little slow. I have another boyfriend, now.
His name is Dan. And he’s one of the sweetest guys on the planet. I met him through Rebekah on myspace. He’s….so amazing DD
I’m really close to Max now. He’s one of my bffs. He’s cooooooooooooool as hell, and we takl in 7th hour so much we get in trouble almost every freakin’ day. Lol.
I’m kinda fightin’ with Randa. She was bein’ a stupid bitch and wrote a note to Pagie saying,
“OMG, she is such a conforming, two-faced, poser jerk who acts like she’s better than everyone else, and takes other people’s ideas! She needs to get some original freaking thoughts and GET OVER HERSELF!”
Yeah. I was siriusly pissed. I wrote her a pretty long effing note telling her my feelings as well. And she wrote back saying, “I’m really really really really really really really sorry! My grandma is dying and that’s why I did it! OMG you have every right to hate me! I’m SORRY!” Not her exact words, but that’s pretty much what she said. Wtf does her grandma dying have to do with what she said about me? I might forgive her. Maybe. Give me some time.
I don’t think Shane loves me anymore. He still has that look in his eyes like he wants to be with me…but he dosen’t actually act like it. I don’t know if I can trust that look anymore. I wish I could.
At this current moment, I’m in Florida. On my Uncle’s computer. Yup. Max is in Florida, too. Just….lol, not in the same place. It’s spring break, and I’m here…bein’ cool. Ya know what I’m sayin’, G?
Guess I’ll go. Got nothing else to say.
My NEW poetry blog is here: http://xxquenchthepainxx.wordpress.com . The other one sucked, so….lol, yeah.
‘Til tomorrow, my lovlies!
xx
I…just want to die right now.
This morning, everything was fine. Beth stopped flirting with Shane, probably because Shane talked to her, and everything was good. Then right before the bell rang, Sami told me that she asked Shane if he still liked me, and he said that he did…sorta. And I was confused about what that ment.
And in Math, Shane didn’t talk to me, or look at me, or even acknowledge that I was alive.
Which did bother me.
But still…everything was ok until right after lunch. I started talking to Liz, and she said that she asked him, too. And he told her that he does, but he doesn’t. He likes me, but is in the process of getting over me. Which didn’t really upset me, until later.
Me and Brett walked around, and we were just talking, until Liz (stupid genius) said,
“You two should go out! Seriously!”
And now…that’s all Brett can talk about. He wants to go out with me. Which I don’t have a problem with. Didn’t at the time…but in 6th hour I started thinking about that.
Shane’s getting over me. Which means he isn’t going to ask me back out. Because by the time that he CAN ask me back out, he won’t, because he’ll be over me, and won’t want me anymore. And I started to cry, and I wrote Tiffany a note talking about it (we’re going through the SAME thing) and I was so upset.
I still love Shane as if we had never broken up. I love him more than I could ever put into words. It’s impossible. But if he’s getting over me already, that means that he never really loved me as much as he said that he did. When I told Shane how much I loved him, I was 100% honest. When he told me he loved me more than I’d ever know, or that he’d die for me a million times, he wasn’t serious. And Tiffany says that she feels the same way about Cody (who is…now gay. weird…).
So, I need to ask Shane if he’s over me, or is he really in love with me, and serious about getting back together with me when he can, because if he’s not, I’m not going to waste my life away waiting for something that’s never going to happen…and I’ll go out with Brett.
But Tiffany told me NOT to tell Shane about Brett at all, because it will just make him upset, and I might not get an honest answer.
Like…he’ll either say he IS over me when he’s not because he wants me to be happy, and thinks that I only want Brett, or he’ll say he’s NOT over me because he just doesn’t want ME to move on, or date Brett.
So confusing, I don’t know what to do!
Anthony dropped out. I knew he didn’t care about me. And I wouldn’t be surprised if I never saw him again.
Ashley’s gonna talk to him for me. You see, I need $50…he’s rich…yeah, if you know what I mean, I need some cash, and he can give that to me…if I do some “favors” for him. Don’t think he’d do it…but it’s worth a shot.
I WANT THOSE PANTS AT HOT TOPIC!
Well…nothing else to say, I guess.
‘Til tomorrow, beautifuls!
xx
Wow. Today was one of the first days in a long time I’ve been so pissed, I wanted to litterally kill the person who ticked me off.
This morning I was talking to Paige and Teressa before class. Paige told me that “Beth” has been talking about me to her. Saying that I stare at her (bitch, please. she’s ALWAYS looking in my direction) and all this shit. Saying that she doesn’t like Shane, but she’s going to keep flirting with him anyway just to make me mad. It really….REALLY…pissed me off.
That mother fucking, cunt sucking, ugly, lying-ass, fake-ass ho needs to shut the fuck up, before I cut off the nasty love-handles that she lets flip-flop everywhere and shove them up her freaking ass. I didn’t do shit to her, and she needs to just keep my fucking name out of her mouth, because she doesn’t know anything about me. I don’t even know how she knew my effing name. She needs to know who the fuck she’s talking about before she starts talking. Because I DON’T LET SHIT GO. I’m still freaking mad at Faith fucking Mowry for calling me fat almost a freaking YEAR AGO.
Oh and get this: I was talking to Sami about how I know that Shane lied to me, and DOES like her, and if she continues flirting and he asks her out, she’s gonna say no, and he’s gonna get hurt. Well, she says that she thinks that SHANE IS IN ON IT. What the fuck ever! She says he’s trying to make me jealous. He should have known I was already jealous, LONG BEFORE this shit happened! After that I told him I was pissed, and he wouldn’t stop talking to me, and trying to calm me down sayin, “Ok, ok, I’ll talk to her about it 6th hour..” Whatever, I’m pissed. Kept saying “Ello, Popit!” Which did calm me down some…(hee hee) but I’ve been mad all day…!! Bitch, please, fucking whore…
Brett called me sexy today
That’s about all….I typed that so fast…LOL!
See ya!
xx
